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Hello, I'm Kelly. I am a gay crossdressing porn addicted masturbator. My bust size ranges from AA cup to S cup, but usually I'm a G, H, or J cup. I love big tits, sucking hard cock and strapons. Because of muscle and nerve damage I usually cannot attain an erection, though I do still enjoy and usually am masturbating in my favorite way. I am basically a crossdressing bottom. Love wearing nylon or silk hosiery and red lipstick when I'm playing, either with myself or with others. Of my many fetishes red lipstick, long red nails, crossdressing, bras and nylons are the top of more than I care to name! I love the feeling of wearing satin and silk lingerie and clothing. I love watching porn and masturbating.

My favorite way of masturbating is standing at an open window in the back of my house that looks into a workshop attached to the house. With the exception of two of the windows in the house, all the sills are 4 feet high and I can easily stand at the windows and rest my elbows on the sills. A 2x4 stands under the sill against the wall with the base of the 2x4 about 18 inches from the wall. When I masturbate I straddle the 2x4, lubricating it with saliva and sometimes KY jelly and hump it, raising myself up and down by standing on my toes and thrusting my hips, fucking my cock between my belly and the 2x4.
In the shop, against the wall of the house, there is a parts cabinet the same height as the window sill on which I can rest my portable device I use for watching porn and anything else necessary such as lipstick, masturbation lubricants and sex toys. Using this method I've been able to masturbate and achieve orgasm even when my penis is limp or semi-erect. This is also fun way to play with a boyfriend or gurlfriend as they can get behind me and fuck my ass, holding my hips or rubbing my big boobs as I'm masturbating.
I spend most of my online time on xhamster.com as grannyg, watching porn and chatting while dressed and masturbating. Join me if you'd like.

Please understand this.

When I was 15, the day before my 20-4 birthday, my friend Lynda and I were walking home from school as we always did when, at an intersection, I needed to retie my shoe. The traffic light was green for us so Lynda proceeded to cross in the crosswalk while I retied my shoe telling her I'd catch up. Halfway across the intersection she dropped a book she was carrying and bent down to pick it up  and tripped, falling down. A driver (under the influence of alcohol) ran the red at this time and was heading right for her, his driver side front wheel headed right for her head.                                                                                                                                                                             

When I saw what was about to happen I ran forward and tried to push Lynda out of the way which, for the most part, I was successful at. However, I found out later, I didn't quite push her out of the way enough. She was hit in the abdominal area by the cars right front fender and her right leg, from the knee down, was crushed by the passenger side front wheel. I however wasn't so lucky.                                                                 

 When the car hit us I was right in the front of it. In front of a Cadillac doing, what the police later estimated to be, 40 mph. I didn't even know what happened other than having thought very briefly to myself "Oh shit", then it was lights out for me at least temporarily. I found out later I was thrown 50 feet by the impact and hit the edge of the sidewalk with my right side. When I finally awoke I was in the hospital bandaged almost from head to toe and with all kinds of tubes and wires sticking out of seemingly everywhere. I found out later it was 10 days after the accident. I wasn't really sure where I was or how I'd gotten there at first but my memory or nightmare or daymare or whatever you call it of the accident slowly started coming back to me and I was surprised and very grateful that I had at least survived. One of my first visitors, other than the medical staff, was Lynda in a wheelchair. When I saw her and realized her right leg was missing I was confused, I thought I had pushed her out of the way and she was safe. I remember trying to cry for her and apologize at the same time but found myself to be in extreme pain upon doing so. I learned the extent of her injuries and my own.                                                                                                                              
Lynda's right leg from just above the knee down to her foot had been crushed and required amputation. The impact of the car hitting her abdominal area caused internal injuries which resulted in her having to have a hysterectomy.

My right leg was shattered from the ankle to the hip and would need to be reconstructed, leaving me with a slight limp, or so people tell me. My right knee and hip were both blown and would need to be replaced. My pelvic bone was split and would need to be repaired with a metal plate and screws. Something had slashed the erectile muscles and severed the penile nerves as well, I don't think the surgeons or insurance company really gave that much of a priority as instead of reconnecting the muscle tissues and nerve endings they just elected to carterize the severed tissues to seal them. My right hand was shattered and had to be rebuilt, leaving me with approximately 50% dexterity lose. My right rib cage was also shattered and many of the ribs had to be replaced. My back and neck were both broken but by some extra extreme luck, or some might saw by the grace of god, my spinal cord wasn't damaged so I wasn't left paralyzed and now have a metaI rod in my neck and back. I also had a compound skull fracture that left me with a plate in my skull and some hearing loss in my right ear.                                                                   

When I say in my about me section that I have difficulty getting or attaining an erection it's because about 60% of the erectile muscles plus penile nerves were severed and not repaired as they should or could have been .

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