Hi! My name is Hailey! And, I'm a sex addict!
by HornyHailey

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I have to get this out there! I'm sure it will break some of your hearts, if I haven't already. But, I need you to understand. Please understand?! It is only temporary!
I am not just your normal horny girl. I am a full blown Sex Addict! I am very literally addicted to kink and sex! It is all I think about! All day! It is so bad it makes everyday functions difficult. Things as simple as taking an order from a customer. The whole time they are telling me what they want to eat I'm daydreaming of being bound and naked in the middle of the dinner. I often have to ask them to repeat their order. Sometimes more than once! I masturbate multiple times a day! On break! In restrooms! In my car while driving! Showers and baths! Morning and bedtime! In a single day I may masturbate anywhere from 10 to 30 times or more. That doesn't count the orgasms I have while I'm sleeping! I have dirty dreams every single night! I wake up screaming and moan in the middle of orgasm. Orgasms so bad I have to change my panties and have gotten to where I don't even bother wearing any because of it. It's easier to grab a towel. 😂 Yes, I am a squirtter! Not all the time. But 20 to 30% of the time I will! This even happens in public when my mind wonders a little to far! Being that I am not a quiet during orgasms and find it very difficult to hide. It doesn't make everyday activities any easier. It is very much a curse!
I have gotten a lot of wonderful and naughty offers from many of you. I have been trying to be so polite and respectful while saying no. Believe me! That is not the answer I want to give! In reality I want to drop what I'm doing! Quit my job! Hope in my car and drive straight to you to surrender myself for dirty kinky fun. Say no is a battle in my mind every single time. But, it won't be forever!
Let me put things this way! I don't know if you've ever been addicted to drugs! Sexual addiction is a lot like that! Take a crackhead who has struggled to get clean. All it takes is for them to put their lips up to just one crack pipe! Then they are right back where they started. It's the same! All I got to do is put my lips on one cock. 😆 If I have sex and start playing kinky games I won't be able to stop! I will be right back to my old self! Doing anything, anywhere at anytime. Going out of my way for just a small amount of kinky fun. At least a crackhead can go back to rehab and meetings. It doesn't work like that for me. I fuck everyone in the last group I was in. I didn't just fuck them. I lied to my parents and spent days in bondage while the roughed me up and fucked me. I let bad people touch me! I let child molesters touch me! A few guys in for things like aggravated sexual assault. And as much as I am ashamed of it! I loved it that much more! I even fucked two of my councilors! Group meetings and counseling doesn't work for my addiction and desires!
You want to know what it took to finally break me and make me quit the meetings?! I have never told anyone! But after group one night I went to an old abandoned house and let them tie me down to the floor in this old dirty mattress face down and spread eagle. Everything went like normal until the last guy. All the others left! He stood me up and tied me over this nasty sticky countertop in the kitchen. He got behind me and wrapped his belt around me neck and started fucking me in the ass and from behind. While he was doing it he started telling me all the gorey details of this very young girl and all the bad things he did. He was calling me her name and wouldn't stop! He was a very bad man! He checked me until I passed out. Not once! Not twice! But three times! My throat was bruised and sore for weeks! But, it was the details of what he did that bothered me! I don't know if his old ass was popping Viagra like candy, or if he was just a freak of nature! It went in for hours! The whole time he is slapping me and being extremely rough! I had more orgasms than I can count. And every time I have these horrible images in my head because he would stop repeating them to me
This went on for over seven or eight hours! When he finally untied me I was so weak I dropped to the floor. He smiled at me and kissed my forehead. Then he called me by the girls name and slapped the shit out of me and walked off telling me he will see me next time. That guy is back in jail! That is part of the problem! I laid there on the dirty floor. I orgasmed a couple of times just from reliving it! The whole time I was crying because of everything he told me he did. I hated myself so much for enjoying it! I still do! I locked myself in my room for a couple of days. I cried I don't know how many times because I would catch myself thinking about him and getting turned in and sad.
Three days later I found out he was going to prison because he had messed around with a couple of other really young girls! I thought I broke him and wanted to die! I found out it happened before he ever slept with me which makes me feel a little better in a very bad way! I broke! My emotions became very hard to hide an my parents were already catching on. When I started acting strange they thought I was back on drugs and back to my normal ways. They almost kicked me out and I almost lost my chance of getting my grandmother's place. So, I stopped going to meetings and made God and myself a promise.
The next day is started applying to jobs. Not just for more money to put towards a new car before I move. But, to keep me busy and occupied. I need it was the only way to try and keep my promise and to keep me out of trouble. I swore to God that I wouldn't have any romantic, kinky and sexual interaction with anyone but myself until I moved and was finally in a position where it wouldn't effect my home life. I know that all it will take is one slipup and I will lose everything. But, if I behave I will have all the time and freedom in the world. I will be set for life and can spend it being as naughty as I want. As long as I don't end up in prison or in the news. 😆
I hope you can understand why I have to say no. It's not easy though! I had a lot of dirty thoughts come to mind. I thought about make a to-do list. Where I take down the names of everyone that wants to meet up for naughty fun that turned me on while I'm waiting. Then, once I get my grandmother's place, working my way down the list one by one! If that doesn't make me sound like a complete slut you should hear the stupid little games I thought about playing while I'm waiting. Games that I know will end up spiralling out of control. Like this pubic game! Where if any one of you spot me in public they say one word like, popsicle! And then, I would take them somewhere private and blow them. Then they would just leave without saying another word. But, I don't trust anyone to do that without wanting to talk, or wanting more! And, in the state that would leave me in I don't trust myself to say no! Even just thinking about it I started coming up with other ideas. Like words for Anal and Doggystyle. Like backdoor and puppy love. 😂 Even one for stripping me, binding me and putting me in your trunk to take and use for a chosen amount of time. Pop the trunk! 😆 So, you see why I can't trust myself!
This is how bad my mind works! When I figured out how bad of an idea it was I even started coming up with public punishment for myself. That really aren't any better than the others! Like some walking up and saying, peepshow! I would have to follow the to the nearest bathroom or bushes. Take off all my clothes and hand them over. Once they got a good look and any photos they wanted. They would walk away with all my clothes leaving me to face the humiliation of getting home. Even thought about having words for dropping my pants and letting them spank me. Or, raising my shirt and letting them slap my tits and pinch and twist my nipples. That's just how fucked up my mind is and it never stops. But, it would be much different. I still would be able to trust you or myself. You will not just walk away. And, I would be left horny and needy. Which means I would probably be up for anything. 😂
I'm guessing you can see why I have tried to find a way to occupy my time. Most days I work anywhere from 14 to 18 hours. By the time I get home I'm worn out and usually just want to bath, masturbate and go to bed. Which is why you don't see me much here and my replies to messages make take a while. I'm sorry if it feels like I'm blowing you off most of he time. But, in all honesty. I am! Believe me, I don't want too! I feel so bad and I'm trying to be nice about it. I promis it is only temporary. I am determined to reach my goal and all it will take is one slip up. I shouldn't have even joined this site. I swore to myself that there wouldn't be any personal interaction other than friendly messages. I'm not sexting or share private videos and photos. I've already public posted some that I probably shouldn't. I'm only getting one n here when time permits. I will share selfies and writings when I can. But, that is about all you can expect out of me until the first of this coming year. Once I meet my ultimate goal I will be available for much more things. If I don't explode there is no doubt I will need much more. Getting back to kinky fun is almost a better prize than being set for life. I stay wet and so sexually frustrated I have unexpected orgasm. But, those of you that are willing to wait may get everything you want from me and more. Probably much more! 😆 Trust me! I'm so fucking horny I could fuck an army and still not be satisfied. It's been months and it is driving me to the point of insanity.
Those of you that have suffered from an addiction probably understand where I'm coming from. For those of you expecting more than written messages from me, I'm sorry. You might want to find another girl to occupy your time until I get moved. I'm not going anywhere. I love this site and plan on staying for as long as it exists. Wish I would have found it sooner. It's a fun place with lots of kinky opportunities that I plan on taking full advantage of as soon as I've reached my goal.