im sorry to hear that Yummy.
I cried a couple days ago. An old man in the grocery store, barely could walk, had a cane, trying to get his cart to the car and load his groceries. I had to help him! He was reluctant, saying he must look as bad as he feels - then started to talk about his doctors messing up his hip, healthcare and not being able to afford his meds, etc. I listened. :) Got him loaded, he said thank you Honey, you're a sweetheart and you should be blessed!!! Made me sad to think about his misery - if I had 100 bucks in my pocket Ida given it to him! I have a soft spot for old people (well most of them)